Year 2012 Tributes For pet names beginning with "L".

Lacey, 01/22/00 - 06/16/12 

Our Dear Lacey:  You brought us so much love and joy these past 12 years.  We picked you from a litter of 16 and you picked us.  You were the one who kept running to us, full of life!  You were a beautiful puppy and you grew into a beautiful dog.  Our hearts are aching so bad right now.  At times the pain is unbearable but we find solace in talking about you and all the fun times we had together.  Your pictures sit on the table and we long to hold you just one more time and tell you how much we love and miss you. We hope you had a safe journey to the Rainbow Bridge and we hope you are now able to see, run, and play with all the other dogs.  You will always be in our hearts and we will never, ever forget you.  When our time comes to an end here on earth please be waiting by the gate to greet us.  When we call out your name you will remember all the unconditional love that we gave to one another.  Be safe, have fun, and enjoy your time in heaven until we meet again.  Love you always, Leonard, Lynda, and Lyla Gonzales.

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Lady, Sept. 1st. 2011 - Aug. 4th 2012

Lady you will forever be missed, I'm so deeply saddened by your passing. You truly made me happy. I wish I could go back in time and save you. I hope your at rest and peace. You where 1 of the greatest joys and my heart is broken without you.  

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Leah, August 17, 1999 - May 29, 2012

Mommy's Leah:
I love you so much and I want you to know how much I miss you, everyday. We have been through so many things together, and you took care of me as I took care of you. Because of you, I have learned so much about myself and how to have integrity. When I first got you, I went through a terrible time: going through a divorce, selling a house and moving without a job: I was so scared. There were so many times when I just took you in the car with me to just "go" and end up in long hikes at the park, and you knew where all of them were, as you rode shotgun with me in the car, and barked when we came close to any of your favorite places. I remember when you were just a puppy that pulled me and we ended up by a ravine where I discovered you were loving the water, and since then, how many times did I take you down to the river, or the lake to go swimming??? Hundred!!!
Sweetie, when you had to pass, I didn't want to put you through any more pain and I wanted you to know that grandma was waiting for you up in heaven, and told you that you could "go swimming" that night, and I believe in heaven you DID go swimming. When your spirit left me, I still wanted you and I really felt that we had so much more time together, as I would have done anything to save you and keep you for as long as possible. I don’t think doctors know what they were telling me, as 6 months really turned to less than 6 weeks and I was shocked and devastated at how fast you went after all that we tried to do to stay together here on earth.
 Before I knew about “rainbow bridge”, when you were leaving me, I saw you already in heaven in a meadow, smiling with a stick in your mouth and fully healed..You said to me, "Mom, its great up here!" That was the only thing that kept my sanity: knowing you were happy and in heaven. I wanted to be with you! The next day I went back to the vet to see you, and pet you, but they did not feel I should see your body waiting for cremation… I was so devastated. I went home with a clay paw imprint of you, which I baked, and I put my rosary on that. The day before you passed, you were at Ella's house and eating and playing with your friends, Casey and Maggie at the Memorial Day picnic, but I knew you were slowing down. I bought an air conditioner for my room so you could be cooler this summer, and I thought you would be with me all summer. That night I thought you had heat exhaustion, brought you up in the cool room, and covered you with wet blankets. I was so scared, was up praying all night and calling emergency rooms: I didn’t know that cancer traveled so fast in your lungs. The next day I saw the proof and it explained what you were going through, I could not let you suffer any more nights. I took you to say goodbye to Casey and Maggie. Mom followed me back to the vet later that day to see you off on your journey, and she was in the other room. It was the worst day ever, but I think you knew that you were ready to leave that body and get a better one. I wasn't ready, and I think about you every day. I have seen you leave me little signs that you are in heaven, thinking of me as I am thinking of you and you are free and safe now.  You love me as much as I love you. I never thought I would see this day come and go, and each morning I get up and miss feeding you and planning our day together. You helped me through grandma's death and helped me take care of her, and she loved you coming over for visits, and that is why she is watching you now in heaven. You love grandma’s house and her food, too! You were there for me during that and during so many other things, and I took you everywhere. All my friends knew you, as you were my baby. You were quiet and well behaved, and I was so proud to have you. You were loyal and sat by me and waited for us to go, as all you wanted to do was “go” and we did!
What was funny was how you held yourself up and very regal. You cleaned yourself and had pride. You let people know you liked them by bringing them a toy, and you would search for just the right toy to give them. You ignored those you didn’t like (something you taught me) and you loved the sunshine and sitting, wiggling in the grass. The one thing you did that no one else did was put your head down and butted up against me to wake me up and then sometimes roll yourself all over me in a ball. You were a very petite lab, but a great swimmer and hiker and so glad to be able to take you off your leash and just be free to go at your own pace around the forests and parks with me. You are my licorice dog, my friendship. You protected me when you felt you had to and tolerated other dogs, until you ended up having other dog friends. We walked with Susan and Denise, and went to concerts in the park, went to the dog lake, I even took you to work. When I cooking, you would sit a distance behind me and hang out  as you were my little Hoover, too, picking up the "goodies" I made . I was glad to have a dog that ate organic as well as my homemade experiments. When I broke my wrist, you lay right next to me and never touched my propped up arm, protecting me. Leah, I miss you so much, there are 12 years of memories and togetherness that I can't believe is over.
Yesterday I went over by the bush "to go  see the kitty" and I found a prayer card with Jesus on it, knowing you sent that for me to find, to remind me that you are in heaven. I was so glad you got to go into the lake one more time a week before you left me and I don’t know how you got down the hill, but you found a way to have your fun! So many crazy things we did to get into trouble together, that I still go by myself to all of the parks we used to go and talk to you still. So many people still ask me about you and hug me, people I hardly know, that saw us walking together, and they know I love you. The people in the pet store, the groomer all miss you too and even tried to scatter your ashes but I couldn’t let them go. I still have your leash, collar and your babies (toys) and will keep them for you. I have dreamt about you, saw you when I woke up at night a few weeks ago, and had a great vision of you at grandma's house sleeping. I know you will be there when your pet friends (you met thru us) will come to the rainbow bridge to greet them too. I really believe and know I will see you again, I just don't know when, but you will be in my heart and I will always love you, now and forever. Someday we will walk again the paths in the sunshine together, but until that time comes, I will still ask you to walk with me each night , envisioning you without your leash, walking by the lake with me in a peaceful time of day.
Mommy's girl, I will not ever say good bye to you, I love you so much. Don't forget me either, as I am relying on you to be there for me in the next stages of my life, and our continued walks at night together. My sweet mommy, you are so pretty and so smart! You are the best “fur dog”.
Thank You God for sending my little sweet girl to me! Keep her, protect her and keep me too, without her, until we see each other again. I know You have plans for me, I just wish Leah were here with me, too, but I am holding her in my wide open broken heart, in gratitude for the gift You gave me by bringing her into my life.  xoxo
Love, Your Mommy, Gina

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Leeloo Hassabou, 11/1998 - 3/31/2012

My precious little Leeloo. You entered my life when I was at a devastated and emotionally low point. You brought many years of unconditional, love, comfort and joy to a life that was suffering greatly at times. Whenever I would reach those low points I would simply look at your little face and it was if you knew. You would walk over and rest your little head in my hand and I would scratch your ears and all would be well again. You stuck with me through the break up of an extremely abusive relationship to a long time boyfriend followed a couple of years later by a marriage to someone that didn't last. You stuck with me when I lost my job after September 11th and when we lost our home in Hurricane Katrina. You were there with me when it was time to take care of my grandmother after all of her illnesses and surgeries. She also misses you snd loves you very much. You were there for Max, our other little chihuahua throughout his entire life, warning us when he was so very sick and becoming his playmate when he got well. Because of you and Max quite a few families are very happy with their little babies. Daddy and I still have little Daisy, your companion and daughter until the very end, Debbie and Becky have Violet and Elliott, Aunt Diane has Chichi and Dixie and Emerita has Dino. We all have you to thank for being such a good mother. You touched the hearts of everyone who ever met you. You were also there for evryone of the high points of my life including meeting and marrying your daddy, who is also devastated that you are no longer with us. In the four short years that you knew each other you developed such a tight bond that he didn't want to do anything without you. He loved you so much and loved to brag about you to all of his friends. Your name came up in many conversations between he and his friends. He would speak of you with such great love, pride, respect and admiration. Now the house feels lonely and we both speak of you with an intense longing to hold you even if it just one more time. You filled our home with love, your confidence, you bold spirit and big personality. Up until the very last day you were an active, vibrant part of our family and we can never forget you or stop loving you. I used to love when you would walk in the dog park or sit on our balcony and survey the world around you like a regal queen surveys her kingdom. The very last day on our final walk together you stood in the field with the daylight closing down on us and the breeze blowing through your hair you surveyed you land for the very last time. You looked at me as if to say, "isnt't this wonderful. This is what it is all about." A few short hours later you were gone. There isn't a place around daddy and I that doesn't remind us of you. We love you baby girl, we miss you and our hearts are broken. We hope you knew of our intense, immeasurable love for you and we hope you can feel it now even though you are not with us in the physical sense. We are grateful that you gave us all of your love and so much happiness. Go in peace and love my little baby, rest in peace knowing that we know that you are no longer suffering. We will take care of your little Daisy and I promise to continue give her a good life with lots of love. Keep watching over her and for that matter us too we all need you inour lives in someway. Hopefully one day we will all meet again and I can hold you in my arms and never let you go. We miss you baby girl and we love you baby girl. We definitely love you!

Levi, 6-19-03 - 4-12-2012

To my little boy Levi,as I write this I am crying.Will I ever stop crying whenever I think about you? I miss and love you so badly.Thank you so much for all the joy and happiness you have given me. In 2007 you were given to me .You were already 4 years old. Boy did we bond!And for the next 5 years I was in Paradise.Love love love my darling little honey.I hope you are happy at the Rainbow Bridge and not missing me too much. But one day I will be seen by you and off we go! can not wait to be seen! love you so much

Our beloved Lew-bear, your loss to us is so deep. You were a beautiful boy inside and outside. You knew you were one of the handsome boys and showed it with all of your heart. You were such a good friend to Tasha and Kissy and they knew it. You were our fur-baby and you knew it. We will miss you more than you will ever know, my darling. I know that you are with Tasha and Kissy and Casey...give them our love and know that we will be together again as I promised. I know now that you are no longer in pain and are feeling like the frisky and daring puppy that you always felt you were despite your older years. Rest in gracious peace, my dear LewJack. Mom and Dad will always have you in our hearts with love.

Libby, Spring 1995 - June 15, 2012

This tribute is dedicated to our wonderful basset hound, Lila, who died a few months shy of her 10th birthday. Even though she was born in a puppy mill so she had a crooked front leg, it didn't restrict her ability to run around and play with our other 4 dog. She was the oldest--the alpha dog, and our other dogs had a healthy respect for her. Still, she was a lovable and loving dog -- one of the sweetest dogs we had the pleasure of owning. We gave her the best life we could, but when she started refusing food and could barely stand up, we knew something was very wrong. When our vet did further blood work, x-rays and ultrasound, we found that she was suffering from a form of cancer that had spread quickly throughout her system. There was no other option at that point than to have her euthanized. It's always hard to lose a pet, but it's especially difficult and heartwrenching when a dog, who is such a love,and such a terrific girl, passes away. Lila, we love you and miss you every minute of every day and hope to take you back into our embrace some day.

Always in our hearts and in our memories,

Your human family, Gail and Jack, and your furry brothers and sister, Jake, Sammy, Harry, and Abbey.

Lily, 07/27/2004 - 12/26/2012

There is a hole in my heart when I think about my little Lily, sweetest cat that ever walked the earth. She left me far too soon and I miss her more than I can say. Her big brother Emanuel is sad too, and I know that he is wondering where she is. My darling Lily will live in my heart until my dying day. My miracle kitty, Lily Jean.

Love Mommy and Emanuel XXXOOO

PS, I know that Lily is now joined with Samantha, Vanessa, Moses, Noah, Benjamin, Omer, Yaffa in Kitty Heaven.

Lily the Pug-

The joy you brought into our lives will be with us forever. You had a beautiful and pure spirit and always had a snort and kisses when we came home. You were there to keep us company every day and traveled with us to our favorite places- including your beloved beach in Cayucos. We will always see your spirit running on the beach and sniffing out the shoreline. We miss you so much our beloved Lilicorns.

High in the courts of Heaven today
A little dog bravely waits;
With all the others she will not play
but sits alone at the gates;
"For someday my mistress will come", says she
"And when she comes, she will call for me." -Anonymous

My darling, you came into our lives during such a sad time and being the little ray of sunsine you were, you turned our hearts and our heads. We fell madly in love with you. You inspired people to get dog breeds like you and you brought smiles to lonely senior citizens when we visited nursing homes (sometimes in holiday costumes - which you hated dressing up). Your sixth sense and wise knowing when someone (including your Grammy who loved you so much)needed a special nudge from you just to leave them know you were there & that you care. Like a shooting star you burned bright but your time with us was too short.
Forever in our hearts.....Your loving family

This is for the most lovable cat ever. He was abandoned and found his way to our back porch where we gave him food and water and a place to sleep as we were allergic. Well it got to cold to leave him out so we brought him in and he became an indoor cat and adopted us and found a loving warm home. he was a total love bug, lap cat! I have health problems and he was always at my side to comfort, his favorite place was on the bed curled up between my arm and side. He was a true buddy in every sense of the word! We miss you so much Little Man you were not just a pet you were family! We love you and will never forget you!!!!

To TT, my precious little one, I had you for only a few months, I raise you, love you, during that time you never stop loving me. My heart is broken, not seeing you in the morning and nighttime, is killing me. When the tears cease I will devote the rest of my life making sure no other dog dies at the hands of bad inside doghouses made of plywood. I feel guilty. I will in your honor make sure that many dogs are provided for in my will. I miss you my little one. A forever cross light will shine on your grave, under my watchful eyes. We buried you at your spot where the birds go to feed, and you barked at them. Rest in peace my little one, knowing your second mom loved you dearly.

Lola, 02/22/2002 - 09/05/2012

Lola, 04.09.2010 - 10.08.2012

Lord we always joked that you won the lottery when you came to us by accident at 6 months from a small apartment in Manhattan where you weren't treated to so nice but the reality it was us who truly won the lottery that day...a part of our family is missing now...Lord our handsome, gentle, loving, Boxer, thank you for the countless memories and for loving us unconditionally, you were one of a kind Lord and we will never forget you...our hearts are broken...rest in peace until we meet again

Love always,  
Dad, Mom, Cristina, Isabella, Manny, Grandma and Godmother Filomena

My sweet baby Louie -

What can I say but my heart aches for you. You brought such happiness and joy to my life, always loving, always sweet, such a wonderful, smart, playful little boy. My heart is broken beyond compare but you will always be in my heart and soul. I'm so thankful to have had you in my life and will love you forever.

Love you always,

Mom

Louie was a more then just a dog, he was a friend, a companion. Bad days were never an issue because we knew that he would turn it around. I know that he will be waiting at the bridge for us when we get there. He gave us many years of happiness, joy and unconditional love. You will be missed Louie, but you will never be forgotten. Always in our hearts and minds.

Lucky, 12/12/1998 - 11/29/2012

Dearest Lucky,  
You were a gift that came into our lives so unexpectedly and we didn't realize what a gift you were until we were blessed with the 12 years we had you with us. You were a cutie, loving and so special to us. When we traveled you were always such a a good boy, when we were away during the day you always waited patiently for our return and loved us as though we never left. You loved your walks with me in the morning, we'd walk forever sometimes, and you would sniff, and go and sniff and look. You loved paying with dad and the last few years you decided if you barked while he ate dinner he would stop eating and play with you and you were right. You were gentle and calm at the vet and the groomer. Nikki, your groomer always loved having you and Robbie, the vet always said you were such a great dog, never flinching or yapping as you got poked and examined. As I held you in my arms for the last time, and reflected on the years I held you like that, like a baby, with your head tiled back, and me rubbing your belly, I realized, with pain, it would be ending. Our home has changed since you left - yet we still look for you around every corner and even in the closet you used to love to curl up in. Our hearts hurt and I wish, for one more time, I could hold you. We thank God you were a part of our lives and we know you are with your new buddies at the bridge and waiting for us to join you...and some day we will...until then, know you are loved and very much missed.

Dear Lucky:

You fought a long and valiant battle and we had your love and companionship for almost 17 years. Buddy, Maggie and I miss you every day but at least we n=know you're now at peace and no longer in pain. Please know that you will always remain in our hearts and will hold a special place in our memories forever.

God speed dear friend.

One of my favorite quotes: 
CATS LEAVE PAW PRINTS ON YOUR HEART!!


Our little cat Lucky, died – June 10th 2012

Her name was:

LUCKY ‘LOU’ ‘COLORADO’ SOLLARS

Lucky has been our cat for 20 years until now. And what a cat she has been for us.

We got her 20 years ago about this time of year…in 1992. I had taken my sons, Brandon and CJ to Colorado on vacation… to Durango, Silverton, Ouray and Telluride, Colorado, We got back to town late in the evening (about 10pm, and there was the cutest baby kitten there by our front door as we brought in the luggage, she would not go in the open door, she just put one paw up on the doorstep and meowed. 

I told the boys… look around, her momma is here somewhere, they looked but could not find her.

They convinced me to let us keep her until morning… and they would go look for the momma and the other kittens. 

The next day they checked with the neighbors and they had said, there was a momma and kittens that had been picked up by the pound, and they must have missed that kitten. 

She was very very small, she fit in the palm of one hand, and Brandon and CJ named her ‘Lucky Colorado’, I said why….Lucky?  They said… “Lucky if mom lets us keep her”, we were not allowed
pets in the apartment/condo we were living in, but since she was a cat, no one knew, and she was our inside cat.  And she grew in our hearts very quickly, especially mine too, she was too young to be away from her momma cat, so we fed her with a dropper and she would climb up and nuzzle at my neck. 

It took awhile for her to grow into those ears of hers.  But grow she did, and Lucky helped me raise two boys, into fine men.
and later knew and loved Tom and Danielle and Tommy too! Xoxo

She had to have lots of patience and love, and she lived thru all the grandchildren we both have so far, Eric, Denee, Court & Sage, Max, and Bella, Madi and Ashley and Ally, And this past year got to know… Taylor a little bit too.

Whenever the grandkids came over the first game to play was 'find the cats'… Socks and Lucky.  Socks was more social with children
in the past few years than Lucky, but she raised Brandon and CJ with their friends full time.  So she earned her stripes through that time.

Years later, Danielle told us Lucky was a ‘Tortie’ or Tortoiseshell cat, yes, they are known for their sometimes cantankerous disposition called ‘Tortitude’!   Lucky had the brindled coloring all over and a white patch of fur on her tummy, if you would pet her, she would be fine with one or two quick pets, but do not pet her near her white spot.  She would hiss and ‘scare the heck’ out of you.  She never bit.  But you would think for a quick second you had been!!

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Lucky was smart and more and more loving through the years with us.

She loved my husband Tom and would lay by his feet and wag her tail, she loved getting me ready for work all these years, she would come in the bedroom in the morning jump on the bench and then on to the made bed, and listen to jazz, when she could tell I shutting things off, she would jump down and walk me out.  She was loving and unique to all of us that loved her.  Ended up, “we were the LUCKY ones” to have had such a fine cat for so many years.   She will always be in our hearts and in our minds, and can 'never be replaced' as that feline part of our family.   We got Socks, to be her sister the next year, when she was young and I had to work all day.  Actually, Lucky was not happy with the new addition, but quickly took on the role of Mother to our new little Socks.

We really think, that Socks never grew up, so Lucky must have helped
keep her young.

When we would travel, she would climb in the suitcase and want to go with us.  We and I have so many memories of our Lucky, and I am sure will bubble up in the days and weeks to come…. But she was ours and we all WERE VERY LUCKY. 

With love, Bette and Tom, and CJ and Brandon
and all the friends of ours who loved her too!!

We would not trade all the years of JOY of having our LUCKY for the tears and grief at the end.  It is the CIRCLE OF LIFE…

GOODBYE,  LUCKY LOU COLORADO SOLLARS!!

And...

IN also MEMORY OF: 'SOCKS or 'Boots' SOLLARS' who died APRIL 13TH 2012

We got Sock in about April or May 1993.  She was a great little Black and White long haired cat who loved everyone, and everyone loved her, she just wanted to be petted all of the time.  She has other nicknames, Squirrel, Boots...Scaredy cat but mostly she was LOVE.

She was a farm cat, given to me by a co-worker, she loved cat milk and a small shred of cheese for a treat. 
 
She was very active until almost the end....She was thin and spry and could jump anywhere she wanted to go, which usually was someplace high.  She loved the front window, and looking at the world outside.

Socks favorite trick was to go into the laundry room, and get on the washer and wait for Lucky to come thru the cat door, then she would pounce down on Lucky, or her other game was to stand on the other side of the cat door, and when Lucky would start thru it, Socks would bat the plastic door back on Lucky's nose.  They were fun to watch.

We would not trade one of those memories of those two sweet female cats.  xoxo LUCKY AND SOCKS

The backyard WAS THE PLACE THAT LUCKY and SOCKS GOT TO RUN, AND PLAY AND EXPLORE.  They loved it out there. They would hunt birds, or just lay in the sun.  Or patrol the yard, then take a nap. These two cats brought our family JOY FOR ALMOST 20 YEARS.... and for that we are Thankful. We know they are at the RAINBOW BRIDGE. ~ RIP.

Tom and Bette and Brandon and CJ
 and tons of family and friends who enjoyed their company,
and loved them back.  xoxo Many people who said, they did not like cats loved Socks and Lucky!!!

**** End of tribute to LUCKY AND SOCKS SOLLARS.

2012 by Bette.

One of my favorite quotes:  CATS LEAVE PAW PRINTS ON YOUR HEART!!

Lucy, you came into our lives as a gift that we didn't know we wanted, until you showed up late one night. You were so special, kind, caring. You were just such a perfect little soul. And the love that you had for us, and showed us, shone like an aura around you. You lit up a special place in our hearts and our souls, and that light is now forever gone. You were taken from us as unexpectedly and suddenly as you came into our lives. And you were taken way too soon. We will love you forever and always, and hope you are there to meet us when our time comes to cross over.

Lucy Grill, 12/5/2000 - 5/17/2011

Lucymae, 5/1997 - 10/10/2012

My beloved babygirl LuLu when we found you, you brought happiness and sunshine to our lives. With your green eyes and black & white fur made you so beautiful! I loved how you would head bunt us with your little head when you wanted to be pettedor how playing in the sock basket was your favorite thing to do. Me, dad, Victor, Vincent, Genevie & Genessa and of course your loving companion Louie miss you dearly and life will never be the same without you! You can never be replaced because there is none like you. I'm so sorry my baby, I wish I could have protected you better and saved you! We love you LuLu and will never ever forget you babygirl!!!!

I am writing this tribute to my little kitty "LUNA" who I lost a few days ago from a sudden illness. She will always have a place in my heart forever. She was more than an animal , she was like my little daughter. She followed me all around our house, she talked to me in her meows & squeeks, she was always at the door when I came home, always woke me up when she knew it was time to get up.. I will miss you my LUNA & I will never forget you. You brought my so much joy & put so many smiles on my face. You helped me get through many rough times together..I will never forget how happy you got when I came through the door..I have your collar & bell & I will ring it every day to let me know YOU & I are always together.. goodbye LUNA...I LOVE YOU!!

My sweetheart.

You loved to chew on leather, drink shower water, eat whipped cream, lick potato chips and Doritos.

You were such a good girl! You let me give you baths and cut your nails and brush your teeth and clean your ears. You got that nasty old mouse for me when you were just a baby.

Ears McEars, Loon McGoon, Governor,Poopita, LunaTic, GirlFriend, Mama Girl. Paws like mittens. Freckles! On the lips, nose, eyelids. Golden yellow green fishbowl eyes. Bald spots. The good belly. Owl-face. Beauty.

You are unconditional love, spirit, regality.

I loved to watch you wash your face. Cat around.

You fought Gray Boy and won! I never saw you prouder.

You loved the beach house. I see you in the window, enjoying the sun and meowing for us to come home.

You used to be obsessed with that Christmas mouse I gave you. You used to carry it around in your mouth and make the cutest and strangest meows.

You slept with Chuck!

I love you. Always. I'm so sorry. My tears are falling and I miss you.

You made the strangest sounds when you ran or jumped. Like a squeak or a creak. And how you would coo when you were happy! I wish so much that I could hear you again. You sounded exactly like a mountain lion when you were angry.

You would sit with your little paws crossed just like a lady.

You were an Italian cat! Loved anisette cookies!

Things you loved: patches of sunshine, tuna, having your neck and head scratched, a good cuddle, me.

Thinks you hated: other cats, dogs, other people's children,having your feet touched, having your belly rubbed by anyone but me, when Daddy said your name in a funny way.

I will miss you forever. I love you. I miss you so much little girl, and it's only been a few days. I hope the universe is as great and unfathomable as we hope, and your spirit goes on. I hope you wait for me, and recognize me when I come. Please be waiting for me, my most special and loyal friend. My sweetest most loyal friend.

I had to let you go on an strangely warm January night, miles and miles from where we met. Thanks for being my fellow traveler, and for always being happy just because I was there. Thank you for loving my children.

When we met, you were a tiny baby in a cage with your brothers, the only girl and the runt of the litter. I held you for an hour and you slept in my arms. I had to wait to take you home, and when I did you climbed out of that box so tentatively. But ever since, you were comfortable wherever I was. When I let you go, you were a shadow of yourself, but your love and trust was still there, so constant. I held your face and kissed you and said goodbye and told you we would see each other again. We will. I was yours, and you were mine. To you, I was always good enough. No matter how long I live after you , you will always own a piece of my heart. I love you always, my beautiful, smart, GOOD girl. I could not stand to watch you waste away, stop eating the foods that you love, soil yourself, and stop grooming your beautiful hair. I hope we did the right thing. I wanted you to stay longer, but keeping you alive with portals and hydration therapies felt wrong. I think you were telling us weeks ago you were ready, I felt certain you would die in my arms. I'm sorry if we prolonged it for you, but also sorry we ended it for you. Carrying you out of our home was so hard, I hope you didn't know. Daddy said you purred till the end, I'm scared we betrayed you. I WANTED YOU TO STAY......I just didn't want you to hurt. I miss you and I want you back. Always. Truly: one of the loves of my life. Constant, unconditional and true.

Lydia, 1997? - July 11, 2012