Katie, you brought me such joy, you made me
smile, my heart was lighter when I was with you. You were
the sweetest, dearest cat so loving and playful and funny. When
you came into my life I had just completed my chemo and
radiation and you were such a comfort you became my inner
soul. My heart is heavy now - maybe I should turn that
around and say it is heavy now because you are resting in
it. I told you everyday I loved you and always when I
asked if you loved your Mummy you would always meow in
response. We were as one. So please wait for me at
the Rainbow Bridge and come running when you see me. Until
then rest in peace my dear one. Love from Mum xx
Saturday, 08/10/2013
My sweet precious Kato, what will I do without you? You
have been my kitty-soul-mate for almost 14 years. I have
loved you so very, very much and I will love you forever.
Today you are not yourself. I’m not sure if you are in
pain but you do seem uncomfortable. I have to make the decision
to either help you cross over the Rainbow Bridge, if there is
such a thing, but certainly you will cross over to heaven.
It breaks my heart to let you go but it is selfish of me to keep
you here just to ease my heartbreak. I’m not ready to let you go
and will never be ready, but it is a question of what is best
for you. My question is, are you ready to go? Can
you let me know somehow?
I will miss you terribly.
Inky and Sheba will be there to meet you. You remember
them. And Chung and Sumiko and Fluffy and Samantha and
Rusty and Dallas and all the others who have a part of my heart
will be there, too.
Please, please know that if and when I make this decision, it is
because I love you so much and I don’t want you to be in any
discomfort anymore. I want a life for you that is full of
joy and fun, and that life isn’t here today and may never be
here again.
You are my sunshine, Kato. You will leave a huge empty
space around here.
Sunday 08/11/2013:
Well, my sweetie, you have passed on to the next life. It
was the hardest decision I have ever had to make. You were so
uncomfortable, yet alert mentally, and I had second
thoughts. In my head I knew you probably would never be
any better, more likely would be worse very soon, so I had to
give my permission for the nice lady help you cross over to the
next life. My heart wanted to keep you here. My
heart hurts so much now without you. I hope I did the right
thing.
Just before the nice lady got here, you made your way to the
front door. Were you telling me that you were ready to go?
I gladly traded your pain for mine. I will endure this
heartbreak to spare you of any more discomfort or pain.
I miss you terribly. All the places you used to sleep are
so empty now. I miss feeding you all the times throughout
the day. When you stopped eating and drinking, I knew it
was probably time.
I know you got tired of me hovering yesterday and that is why
you withdrew from me several times. It’s okay. I
just wanted to be close to you as much as I could during those
last hours.
Oh my Kato, these next few weeks are going to be hard for
me. If you can, bring your spirit around to comfort
me. Maybe come to me in a dream to let me know you’re
okay, although I know you are with God now and you really are
okay.
We laid your body to rest by the front door where you liked to
lay when you went outside.
I’m hoping that you are checking in on me once in awhile,
looking down to see what’s going on here. When I’m at my
lowest, missing you, please let me feel your spirit around
me. Momma will need a little help.
08/20/2013
It’s been 10 days since you left. I miss you so terribly
much. I talk to you all the time. Sometimes I think
I see you...like yesterday when I thought I saw you in my
chair. Tonight, Sadie has been watching as I type
this. I’m not sure if she sees you or just your picture,
but she is definitely watching something.
I saw the shooting star that you sent, my precious. I have
more peace now. I know you’re okay and that you are in a
wonderful place.
These are some of the precious memories I have of you, Kato:
Jumping up on my desk and pointing to where I should put some
food for you.
The way you would give that sweet face side-to-side look when I
talked to you.
The way you would tap my knee for some of my food.
How you loved my chicken salad.
How you would lap a few drops of milk from my hand when I had a
glass of milk.
How your tail would wag slowly from side to side when you were
eating something you really liked.
The way you would rattle the cabinet door to get me to come to
the kitchen and get you something to eat.
The way you would come and sit by my chair to get me to do
something for you.
The way you would go to the front door and meow when you wanted
to go out.
The way you would ask for more time outside by jumping into the
chair, or if you were already in the chair you would push my
hand away with your foot if I tried to wake you up and make you
go inside.
The way you would get in bed and walk across me several times
before settling in for some lovin’.
The way you would get on my chest when I was in my recliner and
let me brush you and love on you.
I loved taking a walk with you out front. You loved to
scratch your back on the concrete driveway.
I loved how you would mind me (most of the time). No other
kitty has ever done that or ever will.
I remember the time you got lost and we found you on the
neighbor’s doorstep. You stinker. Did you get
disoriented in the wind? I was so very afraid I had lost
you that night.
I will come back and add more memories later as I think of
them. Goodnight for now, my love.
08/24/2013
Well, it’s been 2 weeks today since you left. I miss you
so much, Kato. I miss seeing you in your favorite napping
places in the hallway and by the front door. I miss
tucking you in at night in your spot on the coffee table and
telling you goodnight.
Other precious memories that I have remembered about you....
Sharing something salty or something sweet with you.
How you learned what “all gone” meant.
Oh, my Kato, I love you so much. I still struggle with the
decision I made. I hope I made the right decision for
you. I would have kept you here forever if I could but on
the other hand you needed to be free from the pain and
discomfort you had. Now, your back is healed and your poor
front paw no longer is deformed from the arthritis. Now
you can curl up in any position you want without worry of not
being able to breathe.
I miss you so much, my sweetie. I talk to you all
throughout the day. Do you hear me? I hope you
do. I love you, my precious, my luv.
08/25/2013
Two weeks, one day. It’s still hard to believe you are
gone, my Kato.
I miss seeing you lying on your back in the bedroom or
anywhere.
I can’t get used to you not being here at feeding time.
I remember all those times when the weather was cold and you
wanted to nap on the patio. I would cover you up so you
wouldn’t get too cold. You loved napping out there.
01/20/2014
It has taken me a long time to finish this. I haven't been
ready for this closure and I'm not sure there will ever be
"closure."
You were an extension of me and now something is missing because
you’re not here in the physical sense. I hope you can feel
the love I send to you and that you can hear me talking to
you. I still say what I think you liked to hear...."Kato,
Kato, Kato."
I saw the second shooting star you sent about a month after you
crossed over the Bridge, when I really needed to hear from you
again. Thank you, Precious.
I miss you, sweetie. I will love you forever and I'll see
you again someday, you and all the others.
Love,
Mom
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